good hair = hating the world a lot less

Stttiiill cranky. Yay for PMDD combined with everything else.


Last night daddy told me (after stressing it was a home equity loan for the house and to pay off the credit card bills they ran up when mom couldn't work because she was having too many seizures, and not just a loan for bens car and school) that if mom got sick again and couldn't work that I would be the one that had to help him make the monthly payment for his shit because "Ben will have a monthly car payment." What the fuck, like I don't? Oh, and health, dental and vision, and outrageous car insurance, credit cards of my own, the internet that they use, the sallie mae loan I scraped up and went to school for shit I didn't want to do for half a semester.
Fuck all of them. I used to adore him so much, and I still do, but he's just as fucking bad as mom now. They make me wanna puke. I'm sick of being angry, and once I finally start to forget about it and put it in the back of my mind they do something to rub salt in the wound. And I don't mind helping, its just the way they go about things.

Speaking of family who make me puke, my grandma continues to play dumb as to why mom won't speak to her. But at least she didn't treat me like I have control over it when I called yesterday.

I have two good tickets to see BSB in Dayton if anyone wants to buy them or go with me. They probably won't sell and I'll lose 115 bucks. And hopefully the dude on ebay that sold me tickets to the elizabeth show. Or I'll be fucked out of 200 then. That'd be awesome. But I'll probably go to Dayton alone if they don't sell. And not Indy. Indy doesn't feel like its gonna happen for me anyway. Lame.

Time to get my hair cut because that's what I do when I feel like this.


So lose some battles but win the war.

JULIE CHEN WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WEARRRRRRRING!?


im in a pissy mood. daddy just made it worse and i just want to punch everyone.

omg omg you have to turn on scifi channel right now and watch scare tactics. funniest shit ever.

excuse me while i beam with proudness for a moment.

"COLUMBIA FUCKING RECORDS!"
Support my Turds! and go preorder the cd. Stud Turdie needs a new Macbook!


soooooooo. im gonna get my hurrrrr cut. sweet a-line bob again. but im leaving the front muuuuch longer. like as long as it is now, just thinned out so its not so heavy and huge and fluffy at the bottom. and that way with it shorter in the back i can get it more platinum. WOOOOOOOOT.

Natalee (my best friend from middle-high school) told me today they lost her brother to a methadone OD. He started with little shit he didn't think he'd have a problem with and it all came to this. I'm very upset for her even though I never met him and she barely knew him, he was always gone, and she couldn't stand him for what he did to his ex wife and their daughters..and now they're all blaming themselves (her mother especially, who left his also drug addict father) for what he did to himself. Please pray for them..they need it.

really, does anyone have anything to talk about besides batman?

ive had no human contact today save amanda for a few and my family, but bens just like dad and i want to stab him, so ive avoided him. and mom is comatose because she has an ear infection. and daddys always keeping himself busy.

all my friends are gone, and lj is all BATMANNNNNNNNNN BATMAN BATTTTMAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNN
laaaame. im going to bed. maybe ill wake up early enough to do something fabulous to my hair.

im not really a fan of ashton kutcher because he still acts 15 but im watching punkd, and hes talking about demi, and its so cute, and it made me not want to punch him so bad. lol

okay, i know i need to wear blush and darker lipstick but im pretty much uncomfortable with that at work..but why didnt any of you tell me i needed to use an eyebrow pencil? lmao. thank you madradhair.

but i want your opinions too

anyone but moms and debras will be fantastic. lmao. because debra thinks my dark hair comes from the devil. and mom wants the a line bob because thats how hers is and she likes it.

Hello all! First time poster, long time lurker. I need some nonbiased opinions and/or some suggestions for my hair if you will..it needs cut, and I can't make up my mind on the color :)

( Some rambling and a ginormous timeline beneath the cut! )

new macbook
new lj layout
updated my profile info because i sound like an 18 year old fangirl ...and when i wrote it i was. hhahaha
i still do a little. ill never ever take out popslash. so too bad.

I see bsb in a month. I'm thrilled to death.

Turds monday! That's exciting too, it'll be our 20th show. With no celebration because we have to leave early because of workage. Lame. I hope we can stay through most of Hit the Lights' set.

I applied for a part time job after work at best buy today... somewhere has to need someone with the work skills I have for 3 or 4 hours a day on weekdays. Gah. I need a second job to buy the gas to get me to work and support my traveling habit. I need a cheaper hobby. Maybe I'll take up knitting and knit myself a hammock to hang up at work and sleep there instead of driving home..lol

Unbelievable.

Dear drug addicts and what not,

Please don't fucking reproduce, really, it makes shit impossible.

Thank you, asshole.

I went to Lansing and Dekalb to see Valencia this weekend. New state and new city, yay. My 20th show will be in Nashville on July 14th. It shall be a celebration.
Go buy the new album on August 26th!!! (2008 not 2012 woottt haha) I love them and they're amazing. Poor Shaner's voice is all hoarse and he can't even talk but the crowd last night was way better than Lansing, so of course, poor dude, they played two extra songs, (Including Tenth Street, I was excited, they haven't played it in forever!!) he was probably about to die. One day I'll make them play Eagle Mount Drive again. And Backs Against the Wall even though they don't even exist according to JD. And I probably need to hear WAYDMTW live before I die. They'll probably never play them again/ever though, but I'll settle for new material..lol
Shits gonna blow up for them soon, I got a little teary (and ridiculously sweaty lmao, oh my god, its like I'm still going through puberty or something) last night seeing crowd. I'm so proud of them. I'll probably go to Philly if they do a cd release show. And cry like a little bitch for them.

Good daaays. Favorite turds. :) I miss them already.
My stepbrother's wearing a shirt that says "KONG is in my pants." I laughed. But it'd be more funny if it said "My dick smells like chapstick."

I am so so so tired. I didn't get home til 5:30 this morning, stupid traffic. I need to nap. Its worth it though, for two perfect days. :)
/end rambling

How is everybody?

I don't want my vacation to ennnnnd :'( works going to be so nuts when I get back. Ugh, I want to shoot myself in the head.

Buuuut I see Valencia Saturday so that's awesome. And if I'm all caught up at work I may go see them Friday too. God, stupid grownup job with actual responsibilities.
Owwie I'm getting sunburnt more through the damned window. I feel sick again today, I think I waited too long to take my antibiotics last night. Epic fail.

Dude this was an awesome legit vacation, I got to do nothing for a week, and didn't have to drive anywhere. It was beautiful. The weather was perfect until it stormed last night but it was a fun storm so yay! It blew our chair and towels and stuff off our balcony, it was madness. We were at Gator's Bar across from the pier at St. John's Pass so it was fun to watch it on the water, pelting the poor little pelicans. I want a pelican. They're like nature's ugly reject birds but they're fuzzy and cute and I wanna squish them. Oh my god, I miss my cat and puggieface killah, and the way they smell. .

Maybe I'll do a long overdue picspam, we'll see..this week is busy, I wanna see Bayside Wednesday but I always have to go see them alone, and Chris Gutierrez is speaking in Indy that same night really close to where I work, so I'll probably just go see him, he's always got something inspirational to say, I could use that :/
Should I go see Valencias Friday too?

I think I'm gonna get my teeth fixed soon, they really fucking bother me.

I would catch a cold and start my period in the middle of my vacation.

Lameeee.

Oh well. I got amaretto sours and Doritos and I'm happpppy.

Speaking of eww, we the kings, were like 40 minutes from bradenton, fl.
Lmao

I don't have time to update much anymore.but we're traveling and I'm not driving and that's beautiful. So I can ramble.
Ps, me and Amanda are on our way to Florida with my Aunt Joanna and Rich

Gas is wayyy cheaper down in Tennessee and Georgia than Indiana. There was a huge tornado on Mitthoeffer Road last night, semi close to where I work..scarrry. I always think I'm safer in Indy than at home..but its just as flat as out there. Geh.
And wowwww we just went to the worst Shell on earth. When I stood up I hit my head on my purse the stalls were so small..and hovering on the seat was impossible. There's an "alternative" strip club next door. Very kinky. Very Sauget, Illinois.

WE JUST SAW OUR FIRST PALM TREE YAY.
I can't wait to be out of Georgia. Its gross. Lmao.

I like lots of songs. Some weird, some not so weird.
"Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley.
And "Loaded" by Ricky Martin
And "Holiday" by Valencia (I miss those turds. But I see them 2 weeks from today! Yayayy. This song made it to #1 on the most played list real fast lol)
And "Don't Be So Hard" (acoustical!) by the Audition
And "Thank You" by Boyz II Men
And omg "Something Happened On the Way to Heaven" by Phil Collins, and pretty much anything else by him.
Bahah and "Blow Your Mind" by Nickolas Gene Carter. He's probably gonna stay 15 mins away from us again and well find out a week later.
Oh, and "The Next Episode" by Dr. Dre.
And "Billie Jean" by MJ.
And "Salt Shaker" by Ying Yang Twins
Ohoh and "Bite Your Lip" by Sing it Loud.
"The Dynamo of Volition" by Jason Mraz
"Speakers Blown" by Hit The Lightsssss
Annndd "Montauk" (also acoustical!) by Bayside.

YAY WERE IN FLORIDA.
This is my shuffle today. Lmao
God. I'm bored. Peace homies.

Eww. Amanda's listening to We the Kings. Bahaha

Who wants to go to Tennessee tomorrow and see Chris Kirkpatrick? If you've got the gas moneys, I've got the vehicular.


For fucking real.
Hit me up on aim - lornapug26

Sunday, April 23rd, 2006 Valencia opened for Punchline, and changed my life more than I could have ever imagined.

Every moment is important to me now because I've finally found something that makes me happy.
I've been to places I never thought I'd EVER go to. (Little Rock, Arkansas anyone?)
Had flat tires (and met Shawty {gets what Shawty wants}) and dead batteries (and thank god for AAA - no one had to "service" a truck driver!...and this was actually for Promise of Redemption but it's Shane damnit and I wouldn't have that either if it wasn't for today)
Almost fallen asleep and died many times driving, but learned ridiculous military battle tricks to stay awake that work!
Had some of the funniest moments of my life and the best memories. Laughing till we cry.
SHEEEEEEEEEEETZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"You know what would make me funny?" "A big hat?!" Getting caught sniffing jds water bottle-in our defense, it smelled like medicine.
"Packing all my bags and heading off with my best friends <3"
She Bangs Spoon Dancing
Screaming, Van Protecting, Merch Monkey of Doom
Do you love it?
The parallel parking that day was fucking insane.
Lightsabers! "Girly Girl!"
"You're damn right my bullhorn is huge."
Last minute decisions to the max!
The drive to Wheeling being the most beautiful drive ever by far.
Massive floods in Arkansas!
"You guys be ballin?"
Nooooo food or anything anywhere in Tennessee.
BEEBE!!!! Beebe lies about their Pizza Hut status.
New friends! Sammi Sammy Chrissy Aly Gabby Sarah Lacey and Bonnie and Dana and anyone I forgot! ..Lol
New bands in my life! THC! The Cab (shhh..) Sing It Loud! Charlotte Sometimes! HTL. T$H!
But not Permanent Me. Fuck that band. Seriously.
Ryan, Quinn, Ollie, Scooter Leww. (CUZ ITS SCOTT LAWSON DAY!)
The Hose. The Jumpshot. Sweet Skanking Skillz Tiny Dancer.
Max smells like fried rice. "HAVE YOU BEEN TO MAX'S HOUSE!?"
We used to be George's People.
JD and his smelly coffee/protein drink pee.
We know too much about JD I think.
The lady with the weird eye...
The lady with the raccoons at the gas station!
Dancing to Call Out (You Are The Dishes) good stuff.
B2BV Gods being evil and then not being so hateful.
Really painful foot tattoos that mean more than anything in the world, that also proved to me I can handle fucking anything.
"And we run away <3333 Cause the sky looks different, when you're in another state"
And pretty much everything else AMAZING that's happened in the past 2 years. It would take 8 billion years to write it all.


So first, thank you Amanda for getting me to come with you and getting me hooked. And for all the laughs and the tears :] and Happy Valencia Anniversary to us!

And definitely thank you Shaner, JD, Brendan, George and Maxim too (even though he hates us.) for being a big part of the best 2 years of my life.

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